Love in the cracks.

After a very, very long hiatus from the blogging world, I am back. Or so I am, for now, til something else catches my fancy and I am once again thrust into the craziness. So much has happened since the last time I wrote, my world's just been insane, both in a good and bad way. I've changed a whole lot, and for the better, I'd like to think. A little, no, a lot rough around the edges, but more mature, definitely more independent, a bit more confident, although that has taken a few bashes of its own. But that's another story.

The past year's brought on a lot of new stuff--people, places, experiences, emotions. I found love, loved love, and right now, have taken a respite from it, although for how long, or if it's definite, I don't know yet. I refuse to say that I've lost love, cause I know deep down, it's not true. I know how you feel, you know how I feel, thus, I still can't really say. Like you said, we're not God, I don't know what tomorrow holds. What I want and what God wants are two totally different things, but along this long road, it may merge. I'm hopeful but not stupid. I'm not closing any doors, life has a funny way of bringing into and taking people from our lives. You got that from The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, right? I'll watch that soon.

Anyway, being alone for the first time in a long time, it gets me thinking. And while I am in this positive, upbeat, my-life-does-not-completely-suck mood, I've decided on a self-imposed self-improvement plan, and on the top of my list is me hoping to be able to take up writing again. None of that heavy stuff, just what I feel, when I feel it, how I feel it. My life as it passes, as I grow and learn. I guess I've been a bit too caught up in everything that I just never found the time to write.

Gosh, there's just so much to tell about, I can't even begin. I've had the best year, best eight months of my life, although it's not to say that it's been without tears and heartache.

There's a lot I have to do, a lot I have to learn to do, definitely a lot I have to re-learn. A whole lot.

But I'm tired now, and I'm very optimistic that tonight, I'll get my second almost-full-night of sleep in over a month. These eyebags need to go! :)