I must admit that the prospect of a new year, starting over, experiencing new things, is a little exciting. Daunting, yes, but still. Even if it's hard saying goodbye to a mostly good year, nine great months, eight months and three days of those with you. It was only near the end that it kinda sucked. Nevertheless, I'm trying to get better. I want to make 2010 count for something. Sure, 2009 kicked ass from the very beginning, starting from ringing in the NY with awesome friends in a way only Beijing knows how. A lot's happened since then, mostly good stuff, as I've said.
I won't lie. I'm still a lot sad, and I think that no matter what happens, no matter how long, I will always be a little sad, a little hurt, a little broken. Even so, I will praise the God who gives and takes away. But I am still trusting that God didn't bring you into my life just to take you away from me forever. Keyword: forever. Ever after's worth waiting for, don't you think?
God, thank You for 2009, for my absolutely loving family, for everything I've experienced, for all the awesome people I've met and connected with, for showing me love can come from someone else aside from You and family, for teaching me to love unconditionally, and yes, maybe even for the heartbreak, cause for all I know, You're trying to teach me something. I want so much for this to be a good year. It'll be tough trying to top the last one, but I guess that's where the anticipation lies. I really pray God'll bring you back to me, if not in that old way, then at least bring me back my best friend. I asked for you once before, that seemingly impossible prayer that you would fall in love with me, and God gave me that much; maybe He'll answer my different prayer again.
Anyhow, let's make sure 2010 kicks 2009's ass! ♥
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