Yesterday was one of the toughest days I've ever had. I spent the whole day with Mom, getting ready for my trip. Dad left for Singapore yesterday around noon, and since there were no drivers available, Mom and I drove him. As expected, they took the time to give me some last-minute reminders, and just when Dad said, "Bye, Pau. I love you. See you, I dunno, in a couple of weeks, months, next year," and gave me a kiss. I tried to smile, but when he closed the door, I started to cry. I guess I realized just then that I would see my dad one day less, and that I'll probably only get to see him again next year.
The rest of the day wasn't so good either. I went to visit my baby cousin Luke, and I started crying when we were about to leave, and only stopped when we got home. Then my aunt, uncle, and cousins came, and since I was surprised, I cried even more. I thought I wouldn't be able to see them before I left, and it turned out they came straight from basketball practice after school. I guess I shouldn't have been too surprised, since they ARE my closest aunt, uncle, and cousins. But it only made things sadder for me. I kept crying when Dad Skyped me--I was like, "Why are you guys letting me leave??"--and even more when my cousins came to say goodbye; they had school the next day. It was horrible.
My little cousins are the cutest, though. They all gave me small things to take with me, "in case you get bored, Achi Pau." Aww. JP gave me his small Rubik's cube (not that I know how to solve those anyway), and Matt gave me a deck of cards and a squishy ball. Matt actually offered to let me borrow his Gameboy, and he kept bugging his mom to buy me something that he paid for with his own money. They're so sweet. I missed them even then.
Jaynee and Chrys went to see me, too. And Norts called me later that night. Thanks, you guys.
Mom and I finished packing, and when we were about to turn in, we prayed, and started crying. Mom apparently had been holding it in the whole day. She was like, "Why did I ever agree to this??" but trying to be funny. It figures. I've always been super close with my mom. And to be away from her for 4 months, it's gonna be tough.
Went to the airport early the next day, and I was determined not to cry too much; my eyes were still red and super swollen from crying the night before. Hugged my sister, and got out of the car right away. Hugged Josh, and then my mom. We started crying again. I think we hugged more than 3 times.
After getting through immigration, and while waiting for boarding, Mom, Diko, and 4-chim called me. I wanted to bawl like the crybaby I am, but at the very least cried a bit. Texted everyone til the last minute on the plane, and it just felt weird to be leaving. I really hate good-byes.
Sigh. Leaving family and everything familiar really is not for the faint of heart.
2 Responses to “Not for the faint-hearted.”
awww :( what a sweet family, cousins and relatives :) thats how much we love you pau! :) mwaaaaaah :) we miss you badly! :D
and btw, i called you last minute na :O sorry :P anyway.. im not sure if chrys told you this.. :) we woke up 3am. di toh usual mangyari but nalaman namin, same kami, coz we texted each other after calling you!:O grabeee... but sa sobrang takot namin coz its 3 in the morning :P we slept again.. :D and woke up around 6 na.. dapat 4am ako gigising eh :D but 6+ na talaga ako ngcng :P hindi na kinaya :P sorry! ginigising ata kami ni God to call you! before you leave! :) if NOT we will regret BIG time! :D
i miss you achi pau:D hope you're enjoying and kat too! :) hahahah bear with my kuliiiit texts! :D hahahah love you >:D< ngayon lang ako ulit nagol since ung umalis akong hk! :D
psst! :p
glad to know that you're getting the hang of beijing life. at least you'll get used to being alone and call it 'home' for the next 4 months or so. ;)
oh yeah! Jaynee and i were texting each other because of the 3am thing! :o it was a bit scary, cause it was not usual to happen, for the both of us! haha! we slept again, then i called you already. then we texted each other about talking to you and all that! haha
miss you pau! :o miss seeing you in church, chatting with you anytime, anywhere, just miss you!!!
well, keep these blogs coming! we sure can be connected through these blogs. hirap din YM e, both of us are not online all the time! :o haha
I'll get skype soon enough, and let you know :D
and glad to know bout the stuff you're learning there. i hope i too am learning the same things and experiencing the same stuff! :o
lotsa kwento to you! :o when we meet online! :p haha
love you dear!!! :) you take care there, okay? :) God bless!!! :)
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